Late thoughts

Tonight was an intresting night. I left the house at 8:15, said my I-love-yous to my hubster and got in the car to stay the night with a girl I didn't really know, but knew threw my mom-in-law. She is Hispanic, has trouble with English, but has to be one of the nicest people I have been able to talk to in a long time. Her husband is out of town and she is afraid to be alone. She is 5 months pregnant and does not know how to drive. So, I volunteered to come and stay with her even though I've only talked to her two short times prior. I too, hate being alone.  All night, anyway. Sure it is nice sometimes but others, it's just nice to know that someone else is there. She is going to have a little boy and is very excited but seems .... Scared. She is 26. & is afraid that she will be a bad mother. She has a good heart and I think she means the best. She is funny and trys to make everyone feel welcome. I cannot imagine being pregnant though and not know how to drive. That alone, scares me. Being pregnant, and the labor, is scary... But what if something were to happen and you couldn't get to the dr? 
I found out today, that her and her husband have been married for 6 years. She moved to America when she was 14, to get a job and help her family pay for her sisters medical bills. Her father doesn't sound like he was the best, as he was an alcholic.. But she is sad that they were unable to come to her wedding, and will not be able to see her child because they cannot afford to come to America. 

My parents... 
They are here. And though things have never. Ever. Been picture perfect. They are here. They begrudgeingly came to my wedding. But were there. And I know when I have our first child, will be there. 

Regardless though. If they are not there, I have my other family, who no matter what, will always be there. Kyles family is amazing. 

I'm really blessed to be apart of that family. Because even though no family is picture perfect all the time, I know that when it comes down to it, I am apart of a family who will always be there. & that means alot to someone who didn't have that at one time 

The girl I stayed with tonight, by the way she talks about her old life, you can tell she feels the same about her husband and her situation. She has her husband, and his family, who will always be there. 

Tonight, I've been up doing alot of thinking. I miss my husband like crazy & cannot wait to surprise him early in the morning with breakfast. It's difficult going to bed without him. I guess that's why I'm up so late writing out these thoughts... When I should be dreaming. 

I guess I'll just have to give studying another shot and see if that will put me to sleep. 

Sweet dreams <3