i have baby fever. bad. and not the baby fever where any baby would do.
i want one of my own. i want a little K. i just wish that we were at that point in our life where we could. i want the diapers, and the screaming, and the tears that i can kiss away. i want a little one that i can just hold and love on.
i wish i was done with school. into a secure career. a house on a hill designed by me and my husband. and that this wasnt happening while i am so young.
I talked with a woman at work today who said, "im glad my daughter was knocked up early, it payed for her college." Granted, how we will pay for my education bothers me to no end everyday, and is something that runs through my mind daily.... the idea of having a child and not getting to spend every minute with it because i am having to study bothers me. which is why we wont be having one until that is through.
Anyways. im having to fight the war that is Angelina College tomorrow morning, which will in-turn, make me late to work tomorrow. Can't say that im disappointed though... some people apparently did not have a good day.. im off to bed though to say my prayers and to have my love whisper sweet-nothings :)
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