i sound like a man.

& by this I don’t mean that I am walking around asking to bump-uglies with any willing object. I mean when I open my mouth a nasty 50 year old man who has smoked since he was 7 is what comes out when speaking. I am 95% sure that I should not have gone to work today, but, I did. Sue me. Work has been a blur of things that did not matter to me. My life is so focused on so many other things right now its stupefying. I feel like I can’t concentrate. Writing my rough draft research paper will have to be placed on hold for tonight. I would love to say that I am excited about the weekend even, but I am the one who will be working. I do plan on making some time to lay out in the sun by the pool though, & enjoy the warmth before the screaming kids show up. I probably will be bringing a book, & some sweet tea. It sounds perfect. Even the thought of it has made me want to stop complaining. But then again. I really want to just be in bed, watching a Harry Potter movie, eating chicken noodle & a grilled cheese. My sweet man got cough drops for me. Hopefully things will get better soon.